Rachelle we're praying that God will give you all that you desire and more,I hope that you come to grips with your past because all of us have a past and its your past that helps to shape who you are and your future ahead.,Don't allow your past to be a stumbling block but rather a springboard to a new life. Matthew6:33 says "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these shall be added unto you" In other words put God first and he will add the things in your life that he deems beneficial.